I Know, I’ve Been MIA… But Here’s Why
I’ve been away for a bit, and honestly, I had so many blog post ideas swirling in my mind, yet I just couldn’t find the energy to show up. February’s theme in the Journaling Membership was all about Responding to Life Differently, and let me tell you—I was tested in ways I didn’t expect. I learned so much about myself, and I can’t wait to share it with you before introducing March’s theme.
But before we dive in, I was doing a little digital decluttering when I stumbled upon a powerful piece of writing I had saved. I’m not sure where I found it, but it deeply resonated with me. It’s titled The Arena of Self-Trust, and while it’s not mine, I believe it’s too impactful not to share. No copyright infringement intended—just passing along words that moved me
Here I go again. This is nothing foreign to me. I am far from a stranger to uncertainty’s call into battle. I’ve been here over and over again throughout my life, and I say that with honor and respect.
When you truly—and I mean fucking truly—live from your heart, the highest expression of your authentic Self, the battles with uncertainty are to be expected. I opted out of society’s templated paths. I completely defied the ordinary and trusted my heart to guide me into the extraordinary.
I didn’t come here to settle.
I didn’t come here to should.
I came here to be me—all of me—the whole of me. And this means war on every external attempt to capture my spirit and life plan, attempting to squeeze me into conformity—into a box that traps my Soul.
My maverick Soul had different plans for me in this lifetime. My assignment has been to trust myself against ALL odds, even if it means getting my ass kicked along the way. The Samurai honors the battle—just like the ancient warriors knew: ‘There is something to be learned from a rainstorm… You will not be confused when you are resolved from the beginning. This is where the warrior can express itself. This is where the warrior expands itself. This is what the warrior came to do. Each victory in uncertainty’s arena becomes another layer of unshakeable Self-trust
As I walked into the arena, armed with chapters of experience that built my confidence in battle, my Muse had a message for me.
.MUSE: “As you lead others into their Self-trust, you will be challenged to strengthen your own. Your conviction from your lived experience will be heightened to impact their hearts with your words. You are expanding, as is your leadership and guidance. This battle is another stripe on your Self-trust belt that makes you a true guide for others to forge their own Self-trust. Honor the battle.”
I felt chills run from my scalp down to my toes. Her wisdom shakes my world as it expands it. Her words are a call to duty that straightens my spine and roots me into the courage of my heart.
There is nothing to say after receiving those words. There is only reverence and moving forward with intention, variance, and trust.
To have conscious access to my Soul, the voice of my Muse, has a meaning that goes way beyond the capacity of words. even as a writer. I’ve established this bond with mySelf from years and years of running towards myself, even when I’ve felt so uncomfortable inside. You simply cannot escape yourSelf, nor do you want to. I promise there is magic in standing with yourself no matter the challenge.
I encourage you to run towards yourself. Every single day.
Do it when you’re hurting.
Do it when you don’t know the answer.
Do it when you crave love.
Do it when you desire adventure.
Do it because you came here to know yourSelf. To love yourSelf. To express yourSelf. To expand yourSelf. You came here to evolve yourSelf in partnership with your heart. To experience life not just on a human level but on a Soul level.
There is a voice inside of you that asks you to trust it. It needs your openness to come through and support you.
Find moments of solitude to sit with yourSelf. Step into your arena of silence. Only there, in that sacred battleground of Self-discovery, can you truly hear your Soul speak its wisdom + feel your warrior heart beat its truth.
Remember, you are worthy of the battle + the victory.
My hope is that these words become a source of strength for you—offering comfort when you need it, motivation when you feel stuck, and empowerment whenever it’s time to stand up and show up for yourself.
With all my heart,
Salima
